third audition.







kaya.

there are some things you wish you never saw.
that way, you don't even think about it in the first place.
but after seeing it...
ugh.
wala na.



while waiting for boarding time, i came across the electronics store in the HK airport.
i was looking around for new lenses, in hopes of finding a nice wide angle lens for my canon.
P40, 000.
keep dreaming, lexa.

then i see this...this bag of wonder.
this forest green bag.
photography bag.
National Geographic bag.



it was worth P5, 000.
so i stared at it with longing until it was time to go.
and i set it back on the shelf, where it shall wait for me.
then i sighed. *sigh*

it's one of those things...
you wish you didn't see it because it makes your heart wrench and your body sigh.
but then you're glad you saw it because it motivates you to work hard for it.
but arunno...
it's still a sucky feeling.
as in, i really want it.
really, really want it.

P.S. Taylor Lautner...



you're too hot for your own good.
i wish i never wanted you either.

it's times like this when i want to sulk in the corner of my hotel room and just hate the world.
hate Hong Kong.

i do not like Hong Kong for existing, as of the moment.
if it weren't for this damn country, i'd be back home.

i knew this feeling would suck anyway.
it's all for the better whateverkemerkemer.

so far, i've been hearing that things went well/are going well.
which is good. :)

i'm glad.

retro day was freaking SOCIALLY AWKWARD.
...at first.

but we had so much more fun than you all did today.
haha. =))

it was strange to walk around school especially in Jsec with all the judgmentful eyes.
Zach and i finally got used to it. :))
it was a completely fresh feeling and at some point it actually felt natural to be in 70's attire.
the gimmick was really for fun and for us and for giving notice to the greatest era in history, so it was cool.

we went to Beastwood after my math test to watch New Moon.
hay nako, that movie had so much drama we couldn't stop laughing.
FTM = emo haters.
HAHA.

yeah, this is one for the books. :)

kakafrustrate...

this morning, i rushed out of bed to start studying for calculus.
the sky is as blue as it was two hours ago, but small gatherings of clouds have formed.
while waiting for any possible kind of distraction, i heard the birds from outside my window calling out to each other.
the sounds were all too familiar.




i really miss Africa.

"_____ has invited you to join the group _______."

that's the first time i've heard from you in over three months.
i hope you're doing well.
i hope this means we are okay.





my headache is finally gone.
thank you Zach and Sam for the despe in the worst place possible. :))
i had fun, like always. :)

[wow, i have not written about you in...a long time.]




i have been thinking about you a lot lately.
and not in that way...
you've just been running through my mind ever since that dream [last week].
so, really, it hasn't been that long that i've been thinking about you.

justifying it won't make a difference.

i'm really thinking of...
trying to.
fix things.

i mean, really fix things...
talk and hang and be friends, like how we used to.
minus the...yeah.

honest to God, i still worry about you.
i don't think i ever stopped.
our history takes us way back into deeper, meaningful things.
you will always mean a lot to me.
i don't think you can ever not, no matter what else you do against me.

so i'm hoping that we get the chance to work things out.
i really do want to know how you're doing. :)

it's the first thing i'm asking for for Christmas.
to fix things with you.

i'm not sure if i hope you will see this because i don't know how you will react to this entry.
but if you do see this, know that i'm being sincere.

Bake: >:D<
Bake: bex
Bake: i don't tell you enough
Bake:: but you're a great friend
Bake: :)
Bake: thank you
Bake: >:D<
Bex: :) as you are too >:D<



because true friends aren't afraid to say and show how they feel. ♥

i went to the Poveda fair last night and met up with my best friend and my two crazy band mates.
maraming taga-pordi kagabi and it was nice to see everyone again including the teachers.

the concert was a lot of fun because, in Poveda, it is socially acceptable to act Povedan.


[define Povedan: crazy, rambunctious, energetic, silly]



now it's got me thinking...

if you had to pick one group of friends to keep for the rest of your life, which would you pick:
your high school friends or your college friends?



hmm, something to contemplate on...